Hello again! I know it’s been quite some time and, as the quote goes, I’ve got some ‘splaining to do. I don’t want to make my “comeback” (if it can be called such) without letting the readers in on exactly why I was gone for so long. There may be some gloom in this post, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel (and no, it’s not the headlight of a fast-approaching train).
Dealing with Depression
Well, there you have it. The cat’s out of the bag. I, like so many other people across the world, struggle with mental health. I thought I was doing okay, I thought everything was under control. I thought wrong. You see, I was doing fine until stress happened. Stressor after stressor entered my life–some of them brought about by unwitting self-sabotage, I admit–and I crumbled. I write about strong women. Women who defy all the odds, take on all the obstacles, and kick all the ass. But I found that, when facing my mental health head-on, I could not be like the heroines in the novels. Instead, I fell apart.
Struggling with Doubt
Even though I had written some content, I found myself questioning everything. Was it good enough? Was I good enough? Were these outlines worth following up on? Would everyone hate the latest books? I was crippled by self-doubt, and so I let several books and even more outlines remain half-written. Months passed. It wasn’t so much writer’s block as a simple failure to believe that I could continue to follow through on what I’d started.
Getting Back in the Game
I finally, finally crawled out of the hole and sought help. Over the past few months, my depression has thankfully become manageable and I feel, for the first time in a good 6 months, hope. Now, I feel hope for the future, hope that I can continue to grow in my craft, hope that I can continue to provide readers with books that they can get lost in and fall in love with. And I have hope that there will be an HEA for me too.
Finally Publishing Again
Yesterday, I worked up the courage to publish the last book in the Russian Mafia Romance Series: Ballerina for the Bratva. I also published the bundle of all the Sokolov Bratva books. Well, I finally took that solid step toward getting back on my feet and doing what I love the most: writing and publishing. I am sorry for disappearing off the face of the earth. But I’m back, and hopefully better than ever.
What’s on the Horizon?
Remember the light at the end of the tunnel? Well, here it is: I have a trilogy of novellas under the watchful eye of my editor right now, and I have two more standalones that I finally, finally finished that will go out for editing once the trilogy comes back. There is new material containing new adventures, new hot bad boys, and oh so many steamy scenes. Bring a fan, because it’s gonna get hot!